5.4.06

Negative Bastards

This fucking negativity has to stop. I just had someone call me an anjadi kuppai. For the non-tamil initiated. Anjadi literally translated as 5 feet, bastardized into what we call the KLKs are the Indian equivalent of the Malay Mats and the Chinese Bengs. Kuppai kinda means rubbish if you don't want to use the figurative sense.

It's damn fucking irritating when you come up to me and tell me, "Hey, you don't look like a uni student la...which ITE u from, really, don't bluff me lei".

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Old joke la mate. Get a new line, practise it first, tell your friends see if convincing enough then get back to me.

On any given day, I can stand with the best of them. The only 24 year olds I seriously can give a fuck to now and respect are those that are putting themselves through school. Those who are running their own businesses and raking in the dough at this age. And those who have exceptional characters. You think just cos I'm not some goody two shoes holding on to my mum's apron strings that I'm in anyway lesser than those that are?

And you can put it to me, that I'm like a ruffian? Like a hooligan who whiles away life rotting in prison or DRC or RTC or some other holding complex? Like a KLKlown who probably begs money from his mum for his daily smokes? Like a guy who gets drunk and beats the crap out of the first "kambing" he can find?

I say enough. I am beyond this. Really. Seriously. I insist this bullshit ends. In every fucking sphere and time frame I have crossed I have ended up in the upper echelons of the achievable. Don't gimme this crap and try and convince me that I'm lower than I am.

Mainstream, underground, creme de la creme and the 'untouchables': Been there, met them. You go find some other 24 yr old who can pull this off and more.

Do you have any fuckin idea? The energy it takes to pull this off? You think I load up on energy pills, huh, to get through the days of my life.

Holidays are comin yeah. Everyone's quite glad bout their nice 3 month break. Do you think I even get any? With their holidays here and their getaways there. I fuckin start work 3 days after my last paper all the way to the eve of the next semester. Rest? Rest? I've had no rest since I was motherfuckin 18.

Just, find me. Find me someone who does it the way I do. He deserves my salute too.

2 bit punks. Running your mouth loose.

Walk in my shoes. They won't fit. Let the blisters cure your mind.

Disclaimer: "You" as uttered in numerous quantities in this rant is the general mofo population who just need to check if their synapses and axons all match up. Don't understand the meaning of the words? dictionary.com can help.

Adieu!

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